Mental Health Blog - 5th August

 Mental Health Blog - 5th August

I really haven't written one of these in forever and you would have thought during the whole lockdown situation I would have had the time. I have had the TIME, seriously - me and time are having a full-blown relationship. I know this cause, Time the spiteful bitch is winning. Honestly, I couldn't tell you why I haven't had the energy to write down my thoughts. I've been a little numb, with the odd panic attack (thank you diazepam). Then I had the whole lockdown down holiday time and Zooming everyone time. Then the whole laid up in bed due to injuring myself while working out. It's been a horrendous, interesting, scary, frustrating, confusing and hilarious year so far. It does feel like checking the news is, is… Erm… let me sum it up like this "oh, what fresh Hell is this".  When the Pentagon confirmed UFO sightings I had a manic giggling episode. All I can say is "roll on November."

So what inspired me to write today. It was two things - I have just watched Disclosure on #netflix (amazing, highly recommend) and me and Russ went for a walk. A walk you would think, great! Get some air. Which it was. However, we decided we would hold each other’s hands *gasp* "the scandal" *clutching of pearls*. We were just minding our own business and first off there was this young kid who was looking at us (can't have been more than 8 years old). Could have been his gay realisation moment or he was just seeing something new, fine. Then we walked past which I assume was the father 'did the I am looking, but not looking' thing, with all the gay panic. Can't leave my house for 5 minutes and not have some unnecessary BS. Seriously, people need to get out of other people's business. We are in a pandemic! Plus all the other awful shit! Beirut just had a huge mushroom cloud explosion today. 👏Focus👏People👏. 

I am frankly exhausted by people's nonsense at the moment. Being polite to conspiracy nuts is hard and murdering them means I have to break social distancing. Red flag is "I was watching this video on YouTube and this guy opened my eyes". So this turned into more of a rant. It's just very noisy at the moment and I am finding it hard to process. Just wish people would think more and think about others. #empathy we need more of that. 

Thanks for the read! Please take care of yourselves. 

If you need help, please seek it. 

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