Mental Health Blog 16/01/2021

Mental Health Blog: 16/01/21

I haven’t written one of these in a long time, honestly, I have no idea why. As this has probably been one of the most stressful times for my mental health. I have had panic attacks, I have had depression and I have been close to the low I felt when I nearly lost my own battle with mental health. My brain has been static, I haven’t been able to focus. Even watching TV has been a difficult activity and I am someone who can sink a season of a show in a day if left. I guess my main feeling is impotence, constant fear and frustration. It’s all too much! 

I think I will be unpacking this “whole living through historic times” for a few years to come and just to emphasise what has been going on this needs a list. 

*Cracks knuckles*  - ( Full list - https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2020  )

Covid (Of course), UK Government response, Trump (OMFG), Climate Crisis 

One of my best friends being run over (After surgery she is on the mend), Being in 10-month lockdown (shielding), Anti-maskers and anti-vaxxers, Family and friends dealing with cancer, Loss of 2 family cats, 2nd of my school friend group lost his battle with mental health, Pulling a muscle in my rib cage that effected my breathing, Phantom pain in my right nut that meant I had to go to the hospital, Unemployment, BLM and the falling out with racist former family and friends, Brexit, Panic attacks...

I am sure that isn’t a full list, but it’s a lot. I guess that is why I have wanted to write this as it is so much to get my head around. I haven’t even been able to cry and lord knows that I’ve wanted to. There is just so much sadness at the moment, we will get to the other side. I think something changed in my head and think I am at the stage of acceptance of grieving and that is allowing me to reflect. This reflection is gonna take some processing (insert an Owen Willson “Wow!) 

As always if you need assistance to seek it out and know there are people who want to help. 

Thank you for reading